Another week has come and gone and my body hurts from kendo. More and more things are comming into focus as I read more on the Hui-Neng Sutra. Somehwat concerned that I'm moving to fast with Tika and with the band, but I suppose it doesn't matter a great deal either, consiquence happens in either case, and happens continually. More or less - I am consiquence.
Drum circle the other day there was this guy who insisted that violence was about anger. So when nathan showed up with another shinai, I continually held off his attacks by blocking. He got more and more upset, and when I finally whacked him good a few times he got more angry. I went back to avoiding and blocking again and he said "see, it's about anger - anger is why I fight, thats what violence is about" and I just chuckled and stopped and bowed and went to sit down and I said "Then don't fight."
Nathan looked at me very curiously, and I just shrugged it off and stretched out. The rest of the day was filled with the usual beatings and exchanges of "nice one," and "ow...".
Strangely though, Hui-Neng's comentary on the Diamond Sutra has helped me discover the flaws in my own swordsmanship, among other things. The more I remember that it isn't Nathan himself moving, but my mind, it's far more easier to track the movement and counter act it - because if it's my mind moving, I'll always know where it's going and how to avoid it.
Similarly, I'm dealing with my job better, much better, because I know it's my mind dictating my sucess, and not the obsticles of my job dictating my failure. More so to the point I'm getting more sales and calming people down much more easily and faster because I understand that my orientation to their view that dictates their feelings and actions because they're usually want based emotionally driven people. An inherant flaw in the breed I suppose, but not with out it's merits to the discriminating eye.
All in all, I think I've got maybe three more barriers to go before my changing is complete. Patience, persistances, and adaptability. The rest of it is just doing it. I used to worry about "how" - it's come to my attention that it doesn't matter, long as it gets done.
Drum circle the other day there was this guy who insisted that violence was about anger. So when nathan showed up with another shinai, I continually held off his attacks by blocking. He got more and more upset, and when I finally whacked him good a few times he got more angry. I went back to avoiding and blocking again and he said "see, it's about anger - anger is why I fight, thats what violence is about" and I just chuckled and stopped and bowed and went to sit down and I said "Then don't fight."
Nathan looked at me very curiously, and I just shrugged it off and stretched out. The rest of the day was filled with the usual beatings and exchanges of "nice one," and "ow...".
Strangely though, Hui-Neng's comentary on the Diamond Sutra has helped me discover the flaws in my own swordsmanship, among other things. The more I remember that it isn't Nathan himself moving, but my mind, it's far more easier to track the movement and counter act it - because if it's my mind moving, I'll always know where it's going and how to avoid it.
Similarly, I'm dealing with my job better, much better, because I know it's my mind dictating my sucess, and not the obsticles of my job dictating my failure. More so to the point I'm getting more sales and calming people down much more easily and faster because I understand that my orientation to their view that dictates their feelings and actions because they're usually want based emotionally driven people. An inherant flaw in the breed I suppose, but not with out it's merits to the discriminating eye.
All in all, I think I've got maybe three more barriers to go before my changing is complete. Patience, persistances, and adaptability. The rest of it is just doing it. I used to worry about "how" - it's come to my attention that it doesn't matter, long as it gets done.
posted by Renge at 5/27/2003 06:11:00 AM
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