I'm running out of ways to rationalize my self to myself. I'm unhappy, in debt, not very good looking (in my own eyes atleast) stuck in a rut, can't get promoted and I haven't got any patience. I never know when it's okay to do anything. i don't like being an attention hog. I don't like attention hogs, but I want credit for being around, i want to be noticced, I want to be someone who draws others too him, but no matter what I do, I can't seem to find a way to do that and live with myself.

I don't want to change, and I know it. But I really want to stop being who I am, and be the things I see in other people. But I want to understand what I'm doing for a change.
I'm tired of wondering why people do things.