The decision is made.

I'm leaving a lot of things behind. Music. Love. Friends. Family. Hope. Fear.

I'm starting school and leaving my hobbies out of it. For the next decade of my life I will be studying as hard as I possibly can. I will graduate with honors. I will fix my credit. I will finish stripping away the childishness of my self and accept responsibility for my life. I will conduct myself as an adult for the rest of my life. I will not attempt to pretend to be good with people. I will not attempt to be wise any longer. I will leave the stupid things I want alone. I will force myself to deal with the things I need. I will not back down from myself any further. From today forward I am no longer going to fool myself into thinking I can become everything. My mind is made up.

I'm going to accomplish three goals in my life time. I will attain enlightenment. I will acheive the rank of 10th dan in kendo. I leave proof of my existance before I die by letting the people who know me serve as my epitaph - my tombstone will bear no story.

The starcross project is no longer to be released. It will be buried with me. This is the time to do life. It does not lie in planning, it lies in action. I talk alot, and do very little. That changes and it starts now.