The Hardest Lesson

In the time that I've been a marine I've learned a lot of things. But the hardest thing I've learned in my life was recently. You just can't force love. Can't make someone love you. Hell, half the time you can't believe someone when they say they love you. You can't break up two people and expect it's going to work out. You can't compete for someone's heart. You can't start out in love, you have to be friends, for a long time. Friends are pretty wishy-washy a lot if the time and most people don't know what real friendship is.

I made the mistake of coming between two people and I feel so terrible now that I doubt there's anything I'll ever be able to do to actually be her friend. I don't think she wants to be friends anymore and I don't think that anyone could love a man like me if they knew what I've done here.

I still think she's making a mistake and that she's being pretty childish and very selfish about the whole thing, but I definitely fucked up big time, so I really can't say anything in my own defense.

I've made plenty of mistakes in my life, but this was the worst and it hurts more than anything I've ever felt before because I really honestly do love her. I cuts like a knife because she says she loves me, but says she loves someone else too. I'm either a fool, or she's a liar or both, but what ever the case, it's too late now.

I am never making this mistake again.